Nationals is just a few days away and it’s no secret that I plan to go big. As in, American Record big! So, why, about eight weeks out, was I having reoccurring thoughts that maybe I should just stay home?
I know I’m not alone. All of my teammates are aiming for some impressive numbers this weekend and some pre-meet nervousness is normal. But my level of self-doubt had reached a whole new level. My thoughts were constantly about “what if I can’t do it again…” and how I would disappoint myself, my team and my coach. And, the closer the meet got, the less I wanted to talk about it.
Despite my negative self-talk, training continued as usual and fortunately, I still enjoyed the process. My teammates kept it fun and my coach was always good for an occasional pep talk. As the weeks passed, I began to see glimpses of my confidence returning but it wasn’t until a workout in early September that I started to believe my own hype again.
I left the gym feeling better mentally than I had in weeks. And, to ride that high a bit longer, I sent a short text to my brother, a former lifting coach and Physique competitor, updating him on my training progress:
5 weeks out. 300×3 for 3 sets
Next few weeks going to be fun.
His response was exactly what I needed and it has become my mantra:
Trust the training. Trust your coach. Do the work. Create your own luck.