A lot of positive things have happened for me as a result of weight lifting. I’ve gained confidence, physical and mental strength…and I’ve also gained weight. 12 pounds to be exact.
The day I stepped into the gym for the first time, I was at my lowest weight as an adult (likely related to the stress of my recent wedding planning). I felt like crap and honestly felt that I looked that way too. I had lost my slightly thicker thighs and booty I had when I was a college soccer player. My always-thin upper body was tiny and barely capable of carrying more than my over-sized purse. Sure, I was thin, but I didn’t like the way I looked or felt. I didn’t feel strong, capable, or fit…how I used to feel in my younger days as an athlete. I just felt skinny. Which I hated. You can’t do anything with “skinny”.
So, with weight training and getting stronger, the numbers on the scale have slowly increased. Mostly due to muscle, I think, based on how my body shape has changed. And I honestly feel the changes in my body have been good. My shoulders and biceps are more developed. My back actually has a little visible muscle. My legs are more solid. My booty is bigger (which I love). Yes, I’ve had to retire a couple pairs of pants and a dress or two due to my more developed physique, but I’m learning to be ok with that.
But, with all the positive changes I’ve seen in my body, and more importantly, with how I feel and my improved performance in the gym, that new number I now see on the scale does occasionally trip me up a bit. I’ve never been someone who had to be an exact certain weight to be happy, but I did use it as a way to monitor if I was on track with my diet and exercise. I remind myself that my diet has changed and my exercise has changed. It’d only seem fitting to expect that scale number to change a little. I’m getting more and more comfortable with it, and I know that ultimately that number on the scale can never be a good measure of what’s going on with my body.
I’m happy. I’m healthy. I’m strong. Seems like that weight gain was totally worth it.