Boobs…A Touchy Subject

Suzanne —  January 6, 2014 — 8 Comments

I have never envied big boobs. In high school, I was a “late bloomer” but didn’t mind since I was an athlete. In my 20s I had a friend who had to wear three sports bras to run on the treadmill. In my 30s I was nursing babies and a full cup size bigger but I’m pretty sure that’s not the same. I remember being intrigued when a friend got implants but I was certain that having surgery was not for me. Now, in my 40s, I have changed my mind. As you are reading this, I am three days post-op.

Before my surgery, and contrary to what you may think, I was proud of what I saw when I looked in the mirror. I saw an imperfect yet strong and fit body. I saw a nearly flat stomach. I saw defined arms and powerful legs. I saw a butt that is large and round and my girlfriends envy. I saw breasts that while small were capable of sustaining life. And, I saw a persistent look of stubbornness on my face that communicated that I’m not done yet. So, why have a “super elective” surgery?

For me, being strong and fit feels beautiful. Yet, no amount of training and good nutrition would undo the damage of pregnancy and four total years of breastfeeding. I have worked hard for the past two years. I have transformed my body and, more importantly, my attitude about my body. I look good. I feel good. Hell, I even have people tell me I look younger!  And, that feels amazing! But, for the last year, I have been frustrated. I want my breasts to match the rest of me. While I was certainly not ashamed of my mommy “battle scars”, I decided recently that I was going to do something about it. And, fortunately, I have an incredibly supportive husband and the financial means to give myself this gift.

As my surgery approached, I was equally nervous and excited. I was nervous because I have more than my fair share of anxiety when it comes to medical procedures. I’m a pretty big wimp in that way. But I’m not going to lie. The thought of having beautiful (dare I say perky) breasts again makes me giddy with joy.

But let’s not forget, I am VERY serious about my training. I love competing in powerlifting, and understandably, I had some concerns about how the surgery would impact my training. And this brings me to the reason I wanted to blog about my experience in the first place. I am well aware that my surgery will set me back. I may even be sacrificing some long-term performance goals, especially in the bench press. I have accepted that possibility but not its certainty.

I plan to make a comeback and I have complete trust in myself and my coach. I’m hoping to take you with me on this journey as I detail the first several weeks of my post-surgery training. In my next blog, I will also share my long-term plan for getting back on the competition platform, and I hope you will follow my progress. Boobs are a touchy subject so it’s sure to be entertaining.

I don't remember this picture being taken in the recovery room but I look pretty relaxed.

I don’t remember this picture being taken in the recovery room but I look pretty relaxed.

Suzanne

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8 responses to Boobs…A Touchy Subject

  1. Suzanne, I am happy you are sharing your story. We get to a certain point in our lives and we do things ….not because of what people think……because this is what we want. I am happy you are authentic and want to share your journey. Happy 2014!!

    • Suzanne

      Shelia, Thanks so much for your support. The response I’ve received has been very positive and has really helped me during my first few days of recovery. Hope to be back in the gym moving around (slowly) soon!

      Suzanne

  2. Congratulations Suzanne! It sounds like you put a lot of thought into this decision and you made a decision that is right for you. I am excited for you and look forward to reading about and sharing your recovery and come back journey. YOU GO GIRL!

    Your blog couldn’t be more timely. I too am in my 40’s and spent the last several years trying to make a second baby (my oldest is…gulp…sniff…19 years old) thru various IVF procedures. I was told that the possibility to conceive another baby was low. This news left me depressed emotionally and destroyed physically. My body was shot. Then after deciding to save our sanity and our marriage, my husband and I decided to “take a break” from baby-making.
    Guess what happened…we got pregnant on our own…twice! My girls are now 5 and 3. I have never admired and respected my body for defying the odds and making two more beautiful babies. Of course, pregnancies took their toll too, but last year I adopted the Paleo lifestyle and then incorporated heavy lifting, which I fell on love with. I achieved some long-awaited and hard-earned goals. I also found myself looking in the mirror and seeing my “battle wounds”…not hating them, but loving them either. I am now 7 days post-op. With the support of my amazing husband and oldest child (my son), I had a breast lift with augmentation and a tummy tuck. I will admit, the first day home, I thought…”what have I done”…”what was I thinking”. I can barely get around the house much less workout!?!? While I do miss the lifting, I will remain patient (and try to be a good patient). As I begin to see the changes, I get more excited to see the end result.

    Sorry for the long comment, but this is the first time that I have shared this to anyone outside my “inner circle”. Thanks for letting me share.

    Sisters in recovery.

    ~Amber

    • Suzanne

      Amber,

      Thank you so much for sharing your story. As you know, it’s not easy to put yourself out there but the response to my story has been very positive. Hearing from you definitely validated my experience and decision…I’m not crazy for wanting this! Thank you and I love having a sister in recovery. Please stay in touch. And, big congrats on beating the odds with your babies!! Our bodies are so amazing!!
      Suzanne

  3. Suzanne,

    Kudos to you for sharing your process with us. I respect the blog and all of The Miss Fits for their honesty and openness. Now let’s direct this back to ME! I have strained by pec benching and I am just wondering how you will transition back to lifting with the strain on your pecs? I don’t think we realize just how much we use our chest in basic movements, let alone sneezing and laughing.

    Amy

    • Suzanne

      Amy, You are absolutely right! I had no idea either but I sure do now! My coach, Jim, says he will do a video answer to your question but the first thing you have to figure out is WHY you got hurt in the first place and he recommends you take a look at your bench form…He will cover all this in his video and we will get it to you soon.

      • Wow. That is so incredibly awesome and I can’t wait to see the video. Yes, I am sure I need to address my bench form, but the day I hurt myself I was getting greedy with the weight, not listening to the subtle messages that were masked by adrenaline, and was also pushing to prove I was able to do it. My mindset that afternoon was: if my brother-in-law can fight for his life in a hospital room (leukemia), I can lift some weights. In all, it was good lesson. Wishing you a speedy recovery and a great bikini season.

        • Suzanne

          Amy, I’m going to post Jim’s answer to your question as a QA because I’m thinking it might benefit others. Hope to have it up soon!

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